signs musings...by abby
Abby is a writer and friend to Grieve the Astronaut. This section of our website is dedicated to her musings about our journey. She will share her thoughts on each song as well as aspects of this journey that has led us to YOU...enjoy her own personal connection and take on the meaning of our songs and lyrics through her eyes...
MUSINGS #9 - BELIEVE
Inward we shutter from the pain of our losses,
Never stopping to count what our callous has cost us.
This cage feels like freedom; a shelter from pain.
All we see are these same walls again and again.
What’s familiar can mask when our spirit is calling;
Keep us longing for more and then waste into nothing.
What is the power of a word left unspoken?
Or air without lungs to suspire and be opened?
Song absent soul cannot invoke a feeling.
Hearts that aren’t broken can’t experience healing.
Each chapter begins as a letter on a page,
But stories untold neither inspire nor rouse fate.
Let lessons guide and not keep, for the lie we’ve been living
Is that freedom can come from a life unforgiving.
Knowing well what’s been done can yield hope or disaster,
Breathe and know what’s behind need not break what comes after.
Every moment we wait we suppress more the ending.
Trust again, now your heart, feel the rhythm transcending.
Burn us to the ground. We will rise from the ashes.
Refined by the flame, reignite now our passion.
It is time these chains loosed, for we are captive of none.
Claim the strength in these bones, and embrace our freedom.
Never stopping to count what our callous has cost us.
This cage feels like freedom; a shelter from pain.
All we see are these same walls again and again.
What’s familiar can mask when our spirit is calling;
Keep us longing for more and then waste into nothing.
What is the power of a word left unspoken?
Or air without lungs to suspire and be opened?
Song absent soul cannot invoke a feeling.
Hearts that aren’t broken can’t experience healing.
Each chapter begins as a letter on a page,
But stories untold neither inspire nor rouse fate.
Let lessons guide and not keep, for the lie we’ve been living
Is that freedom can come from a life unforgiving.
Knowing well what’s been done can yield hope or disaster,
Breathe and know what’s behind need not break what comes after.
Every moment we wait we suppress more the ending.
Trust again, now your heart, feel the rhythm transcending.
Burn us to the ground. We will rise from the ashes.
Refined by the flame, reignite now our passion.
It is time these chains loosed, for we are captive of none.
Claim the strength in these bones, and embrace our freedom.
MUSINGS #8 - FATHER
Where to begin?
All beginnings must meet their end.
I’m falling in.
Too late to stop this momentum.
Fleeing the ghosts of history.
Silhouettes cloaked in black.
Can’t shake the words that raised me
from life to death and back.
Why speak at all?
Things unspoken can’t be undone.
I’m chasing this.
Who honest claims they never run?
A chance to fight the finish.
This dance may be your last.
No future can convey that shaped only by the past.
What’s hope but fraud?
Faith in willingness to be won.
I’m looking up.
Praying for breath that’s never drawn.
I came here seeking answers,
But what I sought was gone.
No meaning found in victories,
but in the moving on.
What does it mean?
Nature, nurture, or divine force.
I’m bowing out.
Seeking an end to this discourse.
The loudest form of quiet,
that e’er resounds in me
is in the sound of nothing
where something used to be.
All beginnings must meet their end.
I’m falling in.
Too late to stop this momentum.
Fleeing the ghosts of history.
Silhouettes cloaked in black.
Can’t shake the words that raised me
from life to death and back.
Why speak at all?
Things unspoken can’t be undone.
I’m chasing this.
Who honest claims they never run?
A chance to fight the finish.
This dance may be your last.
No future can convey that shaped only by the past.
What’s hope but fraud?
Faith in willingness to be won.
I’m looking up.
Praying for breath that’s never drawn.
I came here seeking answers,
But what I sought was gone.
No meaning found in victories,
but in the moving on.
What does it mean?
Nature, nurture, or divine force.
I’m bowing out.
Seeking an end to this discourse.
The loudest form of quiet,
that e’er resounds in me
is in the sound of nothing
where something used to be.
MUSINGS #7 - NO SURPRISE
The road it stretches, endless
Eyes to horizon, left right left
The faces of the many
Still blinded gaze is cast, bereft
So keen and clever-minded
I too, alone, count myself deft
Affixed on greener pastures
Move steadfast on, grieve not what’s left
The voices they cry out
The love they’ll share, devout
Their hearts will they pour out
To lands parched e’er in drought
The sky it rises upward
Nose to the grindstone, tit for tat
Words fall from lips affirming
This fractured vessel crumbling fast
Old bones a wake comprising
Who knows their names, or cares at that
Enthralled they line up, willing
They know they’re here, but not to last
The lessons they prefer
The habits they can’t cure
Their airs it will obscure
In molds built to endure
If only ears could take in
The utterings of pain and bliss
If only eyes envisioned
A soul beneath this frail surface
If only time was for us
And every day was meant for this
If only change came willing
To we who thwart true happiness
The brave might lead the blind
The strong might hear their cries
Their truth might reconcile
We all might heal in time
LYRICS:
No one ever listens…No one ever takes the time
No one ever listens…Comes as no surprise…
No one ever sees you…No ever takes the time.No one ever sees you…Comes as no surprise…
And I see you walkin’…And I see the tears you’ve cried.
And when you think all is lost? The answer comes across…
No one ever changes…No one ever takes the time.
No one ever changes…Comes as no surprise…
No ones ever sorry…No one ever takes the time.
No ones ever sorry…Comes as no surprise…
And I see you walkin’…And I see the tears you’ve cried.
And when you think all is lost? The answer comes across…
Eyes to horizon, left right left
The faces of the many
Still blinded gaze is cast, bereft
So keen and clever-minded
I too, alone, count myself deft
Affixed on greener pastures
Move steadfast on, grieve not what’s left
The voices they cry out
The love they’ll share, devout
Their hearts will they pour out
To lands parched e’er in drought
The sky it rises upward
Nose to the grindstone, tit for tat
Words fall from lips affirming
This fractured vessel crumbling fast
Old bones a wake comprising
Who knows their names, or cares at that
Enthralled they line up, willing
They know they’re here, but not to last
The lessons they prefer
The habits they can’t cure
Their airs it will obscure
In molds built to endure
If only ears could take in
The utterings of pain and bliss
If only eyes envisioned
A soul beneath this frail surface
If only time was for us
And every day was meant for this
If only change came willing
To we who thwart true happiness
The brave might lead the blind
The strong might hear their cries
Their truth might reconcile
We all might heal in time
LYRICS:
No one ever listens…No one ever takes the time
No one ever listens…Comes as no surprise…
No one ever sees you…No ever takes the time.No one ever sees you…Comes as no surprise…
And I see you walkin’…And I see the tears you’ve cried.
And when you think all is lost? The answer comes across…
No one ever changes…No one ever takes the time.
No one ever changes…Comes as no surprise…
No ones ever sorry…No one ever takes the time.
No ones ever sorry…Comes as no surprise…
And I see you walkin’…And I see the tears you’ve cried.
And when you think all is lost? The answer comes across…
MUSICNGS #6 - "Madness" Music Video Thoughts
Echoed images blurred
Ever seen but not heard
Return now to something
Escape from the nothing
Inhaling, exhaling
It is time to let go
Of the person you were
Halting silenced whispers
Let your hair fly unfurled
Crash and burn to the ground
Can’t escape from the pound
Of the demons inside
Swelling up like the tide
Once and all exorcised
A cathartic release
A human ecdysis
Our profound ecstasy
Embraced vulnerably
Retch the bile that churns
Squelch the envy that burns
Curse the fear to conform
Rout the temper that storms
Releasing a new form
A fantastic caprice
Now with bold emphasis
Radiate and increase
This metamorphosis
MUSINGS #5 - "darkness"
Pervasive night fills these dreams,
Floods these eyes,
Unsaid and unseen.
No day escapes this lurking shadow.
No phrase can change its somber tune.
Though bright the morning sun she rises,
Night follows far too soon.
Record playing on repeat.
In my mind,
Begin the downbeat.
Beyond the depths there wait tomorrows.
Behind deception bides the truth.
Among the stars we hang our wishes,
The crossroads they’ll illume.
Thorny pathways find my feet,
Heartbeat rise,
Excite my defeat
Abandoned and alone I wander
Can’t face to be irresolute.
The bitter boils up inside me
To squelch the hopeful few.
Trusting, fall into myself.
Hold this time.
Can’t say all I’ve felt.
Can longing raise a soul lain fallow?
A life that suddenly rings true.
Are dusks not meant to paint horizons,
And souls to sing the blues?
“Enough” can finish or begin
To my core
Let all of it in
Long shadows fill the paths behind me
The light ahead prepares their doom
I rise to meet my own reflection
And face the world, full bloom
LYRICS:
In the shadows where we hide, our tortured souls fueled by the lies.
We’re so afraid to be seen, could this life just be a dream?
“Mm, mm”
In the emptiness we fall, did God forget to call?
Surrounded by signs of what’s to come, can this pain be undone?
“Mm, mm”
Darkness never goes away,
It shows us what we’re willing to believe.
Lessons learned, the strength that we have gained,
It’s time we let the world see who we are.
MUSINGS #4 - "run"
First things first.
Vocab lesson of the day: Vertiginous comes from the word vertigo. So if you’re familiar with that concept, you’ll understand the connotation and why I think it’s the best way to describe what I’m trying to say even if it’s confusing or unclear to those unfamiliar with the word. That in and of itself is a bit of irony, considering the word basically means disorienting. fun fun fun
Ok on to the reason you’re here:
When approaching the musing for Run, I felt torn between opposing parts of my psyche. Rather than trying to neatly reconcile them, I decided to take a double-edged approach and fully immerse in the light side as well as the dark. The result are these two musings, each driven by strong and opposing forces, but also each containing fragments of the other.
This dichotomy is meant to represent the perspective with which we choose to view our lives and the notion that however you choose to see things, that’s how it’s going to be for you. Only in acknowledging and accepting both sides can we learn to leverage each for their strengths and find peace in the balance.
I’ve thus identified these musings as The Yin and The Yang: a perfect balance of light and dark forces that are interdependent and symbiotic, and a portion of each can be found nested in the other.
The Yin Sparked thoughts invoke fear, forming beads of sweat
Spurred on by these scars that we’ll not soon forget
This vertiginous vortex whips us along
Unwilling and restless, we’re compelled to go on
Heed peace in panic states
Lord knows the hour’s late
We choose to hide, don’t trust our fate
It’s flee or fight—it cannot wait
Spinning, swerving, bridges burning
Scenes shift and change but we’re still hurting
A carousel of doors revolving
Eyes shut and open, each blink absolving
Take off and leave it all behind
We’ll ne’er escape our judging minds
Change what you will, can’t be denied
Embrace darkness within the light
The Yang
Sparked thoughts ignite purpose buried inside
Silenced whispers from bloodlines who have come behind
Breathe it in, let it out, recognize what is left
Rouse burning embers quelled in the depths
Round and round reels the eternal impetus
Impelling souls, shaping paths laid before us
A choice, providential, divining our fate
Revealing who’ll rise and who’ll be left prostrate
Imminent future designed in the past
Arise from the ashes, alive at long last
The truth set before you kept from bleary eyes
Shed the scales of our blindness, the labyrinth aligns
Trust fate knows the outcome wherever it leads
Trust within us is all that we ever will need
Strength transforming weakness; a brand new beginning
Escape, or deny, or embrace our true meaning
-A
Vocab lesson of the day: Vertiginous comes from the word vertigo. So if you’re familiar with that concept, you’ll understand the connotation and why I think it’s the best way to describe what I’m trying to say even if it’s confusing or unclear to those unfamiliar with the word. That in and of itself is a bit of irony, considering the word basically means disorienting. fun fun fun
Ok on to the reason you’re here:
When approaching the musing for Run, I felt torn between opposing parts of my psyche. Rather than trying to neatly reconcile them, I decided to take a double-edged approach and fully immerse in the light side as well as the dark. The result are these two musings, each driven by strong and opposing forces, but also each containing fragments of the other.
This dichotomy is meant to represent the perspective with which we choose to view our lives and the notion that however you choose to see things, that’s how it’s going to be for you. Only in acknowledging and accepting both sides can we learn to leverage each for their strengths and find peace in the balance.
I’ve thus identified these musings as The Yin and The Yang: a perfect balance of light and dark forces that are interdependent and symbiotic, and a portion of each can be found nested in the other.
The Yin Sparked thoughts invoke fear, forming beads of sweat
Spurred on by these scars that we’ll not soon forget
This vertiginous vortex whips us along
Unwilling and restless, we’re compelled to go on
Heed peace in panic states
Lord knows the hour’s late
We choose to hide, don’t trust our fate
It’s flee or fight—it cannot wait
Spinning, swerving, bridges burning
Scenes shift and change but we’re still hurting
A carousel of doors revolving
Eyes shut and open, each blink absolving
Take off and leave it all behind
We’ll ne’er escape our judging minds
Change what you will, can’t be denied
Embrace darkness within the light
The Yang
Sparked thoughts ignite purpose buried inside
Silenced whispers from bloodlines who have come behind
Breathe it in, let it out, recognize what is left
Rouse burning embers quelled in the depths
Round and round reels the eternal impetus
Impelling souls, shaping paths laid before us
A choice, providential, divining our fate
Revealing who’ll rise and who’ll be left prostrate
Imminent future designed in the past
Arise from the ashes, alive at long last
The truth set before you kept from bleary eyes
Shed the scales of our blindness, the labyrinth aligns
Trust fate knows the outcome wherever it leads
Trust within us is all that we ever will need
Strength transforming weakness; a brand new beginning
Escape, or deny, or embrace our true meaning
-A
musings #3 - "madness"
Truth imprisoned in things left unsaid
And fear to keep it mute
Expectations not based in reality
Biased beings claiming impartiality
Cloaked insecurities laying low our happiness
Indifference masking dire emptiness
Unable to unite love with prejudice
Unable to see that in the mirror is the madness
Speak vitality into existence
Change the story with a phrase
Find words that breathe life into others
Free yourself; never settle for the same
Witness the world with eyes unclouded
See your true self as you are without it
Rouse the virtuous cycle, now the hesitance gone
Let your heart love unencumbered into the dawn
LYRICS:
In the madness, we crawl around, seeking what we can’t find, while all the world is blind.
And the words we choose will change us, they’ll open up our eyes.
Anticipate the anger…throw away the lies.
Will you open up to me, yeah?
In the end, we both will see.
It seems so simple, but love will set us free…
Will you open up to me?
And fear to keep it mute
Expectations not based in reality
Biased beings claiming impartiality
Cloaked insecurities laying low our happiness
Indifference masking dire emptiness
Unable to unite love with prejudice
Unable to see that in the mirror is the madness
Speak vitality into existence
Change the story with a phrase
Find words that breathe life into others
Free yourself; never settle for the same
Witness the world with eyes unclouded
See your true self as you are without it
Rouse the virtuous cycle, now the hesitance gone
Let your heart love unencumbered into the dawn
LYRICS:
In the madness, we crawl around, seeking what we can’t find, while all the world is blind.
And the words we choose will change us, they’ll open up our eyes.
Anticipate the anger…throw away the lies.
Will you open up to me, yeah?
In the end, we both will see.
It seems so simple, but love will set us free…
Will you open up to me?
MUSING #2 - "SIGNS"
Deja vu dreams glimpse what’s to come
Veiling reality from perception
Obscuring past and future selves
What’s once hidden, again found in another
Worthiness forfeit to the gravity of expectation
Fail, or follow
Trust is built on words of wisdom
Drink it in or drown it out
Connect to the sonorous vibrations
Or feign ignorance while praying for more
The evidence is prevalent to those whose hearts are open
Belittle, or believe
Fan the flame that ruins or refines you
The choice is yours to build or burn it to the ground
To find meaning in the minutiae
A manifestation of subconscious cues
Confirmation that the path before you is the one you’re meant to be on
Falter, or forward
LYRICS:
Spent a lifetime, becoming who you are.
Spent a lifetime, wondering who you are.
Couldn’t imagine, what this life would be…
Spent a lifetime, living up to me.
The voices in my head seem so real.
Keep telling me how to feel…keep telling me how to feel.
Signs in front of me.
Are they meant for me?
Will you choose to see? Take a chance on me…
Signs in front of me…
Veiling reality from perception
Obscuring past and future selves
What’s once hidden, again found in another
Worthiness forfeit to the gravity of expectation
Fail, or follow
Trust is built on words of wisdom
Drink it in or drown it out
Connect to the sonorous vibrations
Or feign ignorance while praying for more
The evidence is prevalent to those whose hearts are open
Belittle, or believe
Fan the flame that ruins or refines you
The choice is yours to build or burn it to the ground
To find meaning in the minutiae
A manifestation of subconscious cues
Confirmation that the path before you is the one you’re meant to be on
Falter, or forward
LYRICS:
Spent a lifetime, becoming who you are.
Spent a lifetime, wondering who you are.
Couldn’t imagine, what this life would be…
Spent a lifetime, living up to me.
The voices in my head seem so real.
Keep telling me how to feel…keep telling me how to feel.
Signs in front of me.
Are they meant for me?
Will you choose to see? Take a chance on me…
Signs in front of me…
MUSING #1 - "hope" (Muse behind the show)
Hope is to ignite a spark within, remind us of things forgotten;
of lessons yet to be learned;
of love lost and found in places unforeseen;
of the wonder within each of us;
of who we were, are, and will become;
of the universal rhythm of life that beats within all of us
and of possibilities that reside in an endless tomorrow.
of lessons yet to be learned;
of love lost and found in places unforeseen;
of the wonder within each of us;
of who we were, are, and will become;
of the universal rhythm of life that beats within all of us
and of possibilities that reside in an endless tomorrow.
who is abby?
Abby is a dear friend who has the gift of words and is a poet in her own right. As the SIGNS journey began, she was right there at every step of the story, songs, music and overall development of the show. It sparked her gift of writing and we as a band have been touched by her words and musings on what this show means to her. We felt that it would be important to have another artists' perspective on our message.
Please welcome Abby to the Grieve the Astronaut family!
Please welcome Abby to the Grieve the Astronaut family!
